| First in a while |
[May. 27th, 2007|02:56 am] |
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| | Lifehouse: you and me | ] |
Strange seeing this place again lol |
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| Tomorrows the night |
[May. 28th, 2005|11:30 pm] |
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Its been a week now since my Gf Christina has gone away to Florida.. never knew it would be this hard to away from her.. even a week. The first day she left I felt like I was alone again with noone to be there for me... I hate that feeling. I can't wait she'll be here on Sunday night May 29th.. I have to go pick her up at the airport along with her mom......... shes mean.
Well off I go...
G'night all |
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[May. 27th, 2005|11:17 am] |
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Lithium
What Nirvana song are you?
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Green Day, When September Ends...
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends |
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| These days are Dreams I've never had before.. |
[Aug. 17th, 2004|01:20 am] |
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| | Five for Fighting - 100 years | ] |
What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
You will never know true happiness
until you have truly loved,
and you will never understand
what pain really is
until you have lost it.
To love a person is to learn the song
That is in their heart,
And to sing it to them
When they have forgotten.
Only love let's us see normal things
In an extraordinary way. |
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| License! |
[Aug. 10th, 2004|03:31 pm] |
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Got my License Today
Woo hoo! yeahhhhhhhhhhhhh |
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| Renewel of My Journal (Rich) |
[Aug. 10th, 2004|10:58 am] |
Im hoping today I will be able to get my License and Plate so I'll be able to get out of here and see you and be able to go out and see the friends that I wasnt able to see..
I've been pretty much waiting for this moment all of my life seeing people being able to be free, being able to drive whereever they wanted to go.. I just want that without bothering others for where I need to go... Well Im still just waking up listening to 100 years again.. for some reason it reminds me of how I should've respected the years that I lost in the past and how I should've worked harder for the happiness I deserved back when I was in middle school.. Im going to try and Catch up with everything so I'll be up to date. Ever since The end of the 2nd Semester Everythings changed for me.. Ive met someone very special someone that knew me for me and not just some guy that stands there at the Voc bus stop every morning... We Seen eachother Eye to Eye in 11th Grade.. not very noticing, not very understanding with eachother we were both going through bad problems... but in a way just looking at her I felt a warmth inside but I wasnt sure about it so I kind of ignored it because I was still very shy and going through a bad depression so I thought that anything would make me happy at the moment I guess.. When seeing her with kyle I felt so angry.. I dont know why I actually felt my heart turn cold like I lost something.. a part of me it made me so sad.. so I just knew I had to get to know her some day... and that day came We ended up In Spanish Class together on the 1st Semester in 12th Grade and we actually started talking after a few weeks, because she was going through a bad time also during those weeks.. We got to know eachother somewhat.. but in a way it was only the 1st layer which was nothing that you could hold on to so that semester went through a little struggle with trying to get to know here.. she kept pushing me away harshly but for some reason I wanted to keep trying.. its just with her I felt something new something that ive never felt before and I knew in that moment that I might've been in love for the first time in a long time since Ive had my heart broken in 6th grade.. since then I gave up trying and lived a horrible life.. but when I met this girl everything started to change slowly.. maybe I had some hope to start over again and be happy again. When I tried looking into her eyes she was hurting.. and I knew this just by the way she turned away.. I did the same when people would look at me when I thought they would figure me out and laugh and tease me about it. We slowly grew on eachother.. I only sat at the table in lunch if only christina showed up.. and the only reason I was interested in Spanish is because she was in it. During 2nd Semester we grew on eachother even more.. We talked online.. being able to express more then we were able to in Spanish or just in the reality world. It was a stepping stone to our relationship because we were both very untrusting and depressed. Then on the day we first hung out at the park we layed there.. together close which was the greatest feeling that I had ever felt in a long time. I felt unfrozen from my depression for the first time I didnt feel sad anymore and it felt so perfect... but I feel that her mom when she first appeared would be a dark shadow upon us.. holding us back. Im dying for just another moment to be with her again like that.. to just lay with her again.. soon enough we were hugging and being together more while I was awaiting my Voc bus ever morning... Soon enough I was able to go over her house and we hung out.. on May 2nd I asked her out.. for some reason I knew the moment was perfect to ask the question.. Will you go out with me? She said thats it? I laughed and said w.i.l.l y.o.u g.o o.u.t w.i.t.h m.e and then she answered yes and we kissed... no wish could be better then this to have this girl in my life every day that I spend with her makes me love her more and more then ever.. everyday I think what if I wasn't with her.. and I graduated without her.. I didnt want to think about it because I knew where I'd be.. I dont think I would've made it very long. On The 7th we went together to Prom.. which was very great, she looked very beautiful and I felt I was in a dream just not being able to wake.. we took pictures of eachother in the nearest Chapel house and at the Heritage Park also.. We got locked out of Marks car but it was very funny. That was one of the greatest days of my life, being able to go to a dance for the first time and with someone that I love.. but at the time we werent to sure of it yet. Then after that I would start hanging out with her as much as possible.. she made my day complete no matter what. I went with her to my First concert to with Connie and Asia which was fun seeing Less then Jake, The used, Snoop, Korn, and Linkin park.. Kevin was a little obsessed with the band which is kinda scary.. hes going through some hard times in his life and im afraid that he sometimes might get to close to christina and be obsessed with her to.. it hurts but im trying to hold on and ignore that possibility. Thats a shortened summary of what things have occured since then.. Growing up in this world is hard.. Maturing is even harder. Every day that passed in my past were days that may seem worthless to others.. but it means a lifetime to me and the days that ive spent with christina mean more then anything in the world.. every day is a new day now to me when I see her every day is a fresh and clean pavement to walk on. When I think about her it makes me feel renewed again to know that I have someone special in my life to cherish and Love, we now know that we love eachother and I hope that will never change.. I hope for the best with our relationship to where there will be no more fights and every day will be a positive day to look forward to.. not to cry or be depressed. I still feel im dreaming when im with her everything does disappear and when I have to leave at the end of the day something of me becomes missing I cant explain it.. I think she is my lost Soul Mate and I hope we will stay together and never get lost I love her with all of my heart and I'll Risk my life for her to be happy. At times I wish I could just tear out that part of our lives and repatch it with our new memories to where we would be perfect. Our Song is Hoobastank The Reason.. which felt like a song we could relate to and be understanding with eachother about. Everytime it comes on I think about her and The reasons why I wanted to be with her and it makes perfect sense, she makes me happy she makes me smile and she does what nobody else does, she listens. Thanks Christina Leann Uebbing for being in my life and being there for me when I needed someone the most, I love you. |
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| When you only have 100 Years to live |
[Aug. 10th, 2004|02:13 am] |
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| | Five For Five - 100 Years | ] |
I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
I'm 22 for a moment
She feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
I'm 33 for a moment
Still a man, but you see I'm of age
A kid on the way, babe
A family on my mind
I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star
15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
Half time goes by
Suddenly you're wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...
I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you're on your way
Every day's a new day...
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live. |
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